Current mood:

crushed

my heart is bleeding, every day for you...
what a horrible day.
i woke up late, of course. i didnt go to school though, cause i figured its not worth it when you feel as sad and shitty as i did today.
the only thing that made today worthwhile was the rain.
its like each time it rains, the old me washes away and a new emerges. but that new me is always the same. i dont know, i wish i were someone else.

electric shock
a newly conceived pulse
im back to life
here i am
open your arms
im whole again

youre standing so close to me, and i cant help but wonder what your thinking. do you want to love me? do you want to hurt me? do you want to love me then hurt me, or hurt me then love me? is your hurting me justified if in the end you console me? no, its not. back away. back away from me now. i can already feel myself changing. im becoming my worst nightmare.
ive become you.
but youve become me.
im not sure which is worse.